Today
Today was physically and emotionally heavy.
My right knee and leg pain flared with nerve irritation, leaving me largely confined to bed using heat pads for relief.
Medication
Buprenorphine: 600 mcg
Paracetamol: 3000 mg
Quetiapine: 100 mg
Temazepam: 20 mg (20:30)
Pain eased gradually, but distress remained high.
Emotional state
I was in tears speaking with Andrea, feeling overwhelmed and close to depression taking hold.
There was a strong desire to stack medications during peak distress.
Reflection
Pain, withdrawal sensitivity, and mood felt tightly linked.
I’m tired of this and found myself questioning why I’m doing it.
Choosing to pause the taper and stabilise still felt necessary and grounded rather than a setback.
