depression
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Week 10 – Day 5
Crashing?Tears, pain, withdrawal tension, medication load, questioning purpose, bedbound with heat pads, stabilising decision, emotional overwhelm, relationship strain, sciatic irritation.
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Raw Poem of Wakefulness
The narrator experiences relentless, burdensome existence each morning, yearning for peace and an escape from life’s monotonous obligations.
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Latest Buprenorphine Plan
The hybrid Buprenorphine plan outlines structured dosing to manage pain effectively while retraining the medication relationship with clear boundaries.
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Buprenorphine Taper – Week 5
Week 5 of the buprenorphine taper was characterised by stability and disruptions, with manageable symptoms and insights into pain and cravings.
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Week 4 – Buprenorphine Taper – Day 1: Knife Edge
A day of darkness transformed into gratitude, as sharp thoughts were confronted, leading to reflection and creativity despite lingering fatigue.
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Buprenorphine Taper — Week 2
It’s BitingMornings were hell. Screaming inside, crying, thinking: ‘Please go back to sleep…’ Yet every day I forced myself out of bed, took my meds, and kept going.
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How to Stop Taking Buprenorphine
I moved my buprenorphine to the car, creating distance from habit. Tapering is messy, deliberate, and intensely real.
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Buprenorphine Reduction Week 1 Reduction
Have I done the right thing?Screaming anxiety, pain rising, depression crashing, meds mixed up, no control, just holding on as buprenorphine reduction begins tearing through everything
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Will Lamotrigine stop me killing myself or others?
A person reflects on the impact of lithium on kidney health while questioning the effectiveness of lamotrigine for bipolar disorder management.
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Are Standard Medications Effective for Everyone?
Mental health struggles vary individually, questioning standard treatments. The author reflects on medication effects amid life’s complexities and confusion.
Aimless
I’m from the UK — living with pain and mental illness, sharing my journals and fragments to show what it really looks like to keep going.