Admitted with worsening leg numbness, urinary retention, eGFR 29, catheterisation, MRI investigation, and ongoing neurological and urological follow-up needs.

“Sleep apnoea leaves me exhausted, but after yesterday’s nurse call I’m persevering with the new CPAP mask and hopeful again.”
Tears, pain, withdrawal tension, medication load, questioning purpose, bedbound with heat pads, stabilising decision, emotional overwhelm, relationship strain, sciatic irritation.
The narrator experiences relentless, burdensome existence each morning, yearning for peace and an escape from life’s monotonous obligations.

A repetitive expression of the desire to distance oneself from various forms of travel and connection.

I’m from the UK — living with pain and mental illness, sharing my journals and fragments to show what it really looks like to keep going.