Negative times
Sometimes you cannot just put a brave face on it
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What Could Have Happened
My trauma isn’t only about what happened. It’s also about what I genuinely believed could happen, and the lasting impact that belief left.
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Miles per hour – Urine per mile
180 miles today. Catheter attached. Life has changed what I measure, but I’m still moving forward. Different measurements, same George
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Jaywalking Neural Pathways
Neural pathways feel like signals crossing lanes too fast, thoughts colliding, emotions overloaded, everything moving without waiting its turn.
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A Week I Would Rather Not Repeat
Scans, catheters, sleepless nights, uncertainty and exhaustion. Not the week I wanted, but I am still here today.
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Life masured in Millilitres
Everything is measured now: sleep, pain, urine, time, control. Life narrowed to tubes, drainage, exhaustion, and quiet adjustment.
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Fighting Fears with My Tears: The Night Everything Spilled Over
A rapid collapse into scans, catheterisation, exhaustion, fear, and uncertainty — while still trying to adapt, function, and endure daily life.
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Astray
Depression, pain and exhaustion pulled me away from Aimless. I haven’t disappeared completely. I’ve simply been struggling to exist.
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Raw Poem of Wakefulness
The narrator experiences relentless, burdensome existence each morning, yearning for peace and an escape from life’s monotonous obligations.
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Cannot
A really bad day brings negativity on a huge scale. No joy in posting but an important record
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Some words from the night
A repetitive expression of the desire to distance oneself from various forms of travel and connection.
Aimless
I’m from the UK — living with pain and mental illness, sharing my journals and fragments to show what it really looks like to keep going.