Journal
This is journal, journey is neither recovery or decline, but a real-time record of living through pain, medication, fatigue, and change.
Nothing is rewritten or softened.
Pain, sleep, mood, movement, and treatment are tracked honestly over time. Not for performance or narrative — simply to preserve patterns, evidence, and the reality of daily survival.
Entries can seem detached and that is the nature of the beast, you know when your arm is broken but not when your mind is!
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Imprisoned by LIFE
I am Imprisoned by life. My life circumstances stop me from escaping. I used to think that suicidal thoughts were a coping mechanism, they are not, they are just a way of life now. At some point I will be free to finally go to sleep I feel very, very low, very tearful, on the point of despair. What’s the point I cannot do it for much longer. Pretending to hold it all together My daily physical pain can be detrimental to my mental condition. My PTSD affects my quality of sleep which makes me tired physically and mentally. Exhausted!…
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Buprenorphine Taper – Week 6
Week 6 of my buprenorphine taper involved progress and setbacks, with pain management challenges, successful monitoring, and reflections on my journey.
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Knee Injury During a Buprenorphine Taper
A knee injury has complicated a buprenorphine taper, requiring adjustments in medication and focus on stability and control.
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Latest Buprenorphine Plan
The hybrid Buprenorphine plan outlines structured dosing to manage pain effectively while retraining the medication relationship with clear boundaries.
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Cannot
A really bad day brings negativity on a huge scale. No joy in posting but an important record
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Buprenorphine Taper – Week 5
Week 5 of the buprenorphine taper was characterised by stability and disruptions, with manageable symptoms and insights into pain and cravings.
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Buprenorphine Taper — Week 4
Week 4 shows stability amidst pain fluctuations, fatigue, and emotional stress; controlled medication use supports resilience and effective management.
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One day she won’t be there
The narrator reflects on the profound loss of a loved one, pondering the silence and emptiness that follows her absence.
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And then he made dogs
In a perfect world of harmony, dogs embody unconditional love and joy, enhancing life and reminding us of simplicity and presence.
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Living with Chronic Pain: A day in experience
A day living with chronic pain is chronicled, highlighting management strategies, emotional reflections, and the impact on daily life.
