Journal
This is journal, journey is neither recovery or decline, but a real-time record of living through pain, medication, fatigue, and change.
Nothing is rewritten or softened.
Pain, sleep, mood, movement, and treatment are tracked honestly over time. Not for performance or narrative — simply to preserve patterns, evidence, and the reality of daily survival.
Entries can seem detached and that is the nature of the beast, you know when your arm is broken but not when your mind is!
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Week 10 – Day 5
Crashing?Tears, pain, withdrawal tension, medication load, questioning purpose, bedbound with heat pads, stabilising decision, emotional overwhelm, relationship strain, sciatic irritation.
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Raw Poem of Wakefulness
The narrator experiences relentless, burdensome existence each morning, yearning for peace and an escape from life’s monotonous obligations.
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Imprisoned by LIFE
I am Imprisoned by life. My life circumstances stop me from escaping. I used to think that suicidal thoughts were a coping mechanism, they are not, they are just a way of life now. At some point I will be free to finally go to sleep I feel very, very low, very tearful, on the
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Buprenorphine Taper – Week 6
Week 6 of my buprenorphine taper involved progress and setbacks, with pain management challenges, successful monitoring, and reflections on my journey.
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Knee Injury During a Buprenorphine Taper
A knee injury has complicated a buprenorphine taper, requiring adjustments in medication and focus on stability and control.
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Latest Buprenorphine Plan
The hybrid Buprenorphine plan outlines structured dosing to manage pain effectively while retraining the medication relationship with clear boundaries.
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Cannot
A really bad day brings negativity on a huge scale. No joy in posting but an important record
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Buprenorphine Taper – Week 5
Week 5 of the buprenorphine taper was characterised by stability and disruptions, with manageable symptoms and insights into pain and cravings.
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Buprenorphine Taper — Week 4
Week 4 shows stability amidst pain fluctuations, fatigue, and emotional stress; controlled medication use supports resilience and effective management.
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One day she won’t be there
The narrator reflects on the profound loss of a loved one, pondering the silence and emptiness that follows her absence.
