Journal
This is journal, journey is neither recovery or decline, but a real-time record of living through pain, medication, fatigue, and change.
Nothing is rewritten or softened.
Pain, sleep, mood, movement, and treatment are tracked honestly over time. Not for performance or narrative — simply to preserve patterns, evidence, and the reality of daily survival.
Entries can seem detached and that is the nature of the beast, you know when your arm is broken but not when your mind is!
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This is what the site is all about – LIVING with SUICIDE in my head not in my hands.
Living with suicide in my head, not my hands — a day of intrusive thoughts, struggle, and quiet persistence.
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Stay Safe This Winter: Tips for Dealing with Snow and Ice
Snow and ice bring anxiety now; preparation is key for safety while navigating daily tasks and caring for loved ones.
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Is it a backdown? Or Psychosis?
Have you ever known someone that has such severe distress that can lead to thoughts of suicide?
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A Voicemail for Clarity: Stepping Back from Social Media
The author reflects on past simplicity, rejects constant connectivity, and seeks a simpler life, planning to limit digital distractions.
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Understanding Neurology: My Doctor Visit Experience
An individual’s anxious journey to consult a neurologist about troubling symptoms, expressing worries regarding diagnosis and personal challenges.
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Day 12 of Lithium Withdrawal: My Struggles and Solutions
The writer shares their struggles with lithium withdrawal, relying on diazepam and temazepam for pain and sleep while seeking medical guidance.
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Understanding the Impact of Lithium Treatment
Day 7 Andrew reflects on a positive journey concerning his illness, emphasising gratitude and the importance of consulting healthcare professionals.
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Day 6 – Lithium withdrawal seems to be settling
The author shares their experience with tablets and advises consulting healthcare providers before embarking on a similar journey.
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Day 5 Without Lithium: Struggles and Reflections
The author reflects on day five without lithium, experiencing sadness and withdrawal concerns while navigating personal relationships and upcoming plans.
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Day 4 Dealing with Temazepam AND Lithium Side Effects: A Personal Journey
The author shares their experience of feeling unwell after taking a high dose of Temazepam, dealing with withdrawal symptoms from lithium, and struggling to stay motivated with a list of DIY tasks. They anticipate a two-week getaway for rest and hope their symptoms will improve over time.
