Sometimes you cannot just put a brave face on it
Living with suicide in my head, not my hands — a day of intrusive thoughts, struggle, and quiet persistence.
Have you ever known someone that has such severe distress that can lead to thoughts of suicide?

The author shares their experience of feeling unwell after taking a high dose of Temazepam, dealing with withdrawal symptoms from lithium, and struggling to stay motivated with a list of DIY tasks. They anticipate a two-week getaway for rest and hope their symptoms will improve over time.
Struggling with withdrawal symptoms, the narrator faces a challenging day but finds comfort in routine, companionship, and creativity.

The author reflects on exhaustion after a family meal, considers ME, and emphasises seeking medical advice for similar situations.

I’m from the UK — living with pain and mental illness, sharing my journals and fragments to show what it really looks like to keep going.