Negative times
Sometimes you cannot just put a brave face on it
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The Fear of Today
The narrator reflects on returning powerful medication, experiencing fear of withdrawal but also a sense of resistance and control.
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Exhausted
Archive piece: exhausted mind admitting hidden suicidal thoughts, fearing burdening loved ones, feeling unseen and unheard while hope quietly fades.
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Will Lamotrigine stop me killing myself or others?
A person reflects on the impact of lithium on kidney health while questioning the effectiveness of lamotrigine for bipolar disorder management.
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Why Falling Could Be More Complex Than You Think
The author reflects on frequent falls, pain management with medication, and criticises others’ unsolicited advice on personal experiences.
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This is what the site is all about – LIVING with SUICIDE in my head not in my hands.
Living with suicide in my head, not my hands — a day of intrusive thoughts, struggle, and quiet persistence.
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Is it a backdown? Or Psychosis?
Have you ever known someone that has such severe distress that can lead to thoughts of suicide?
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Day 4 Dealing with Temazepam AND Lithium Side Effects: A Personal Journey
The author shares their experience of feeling unwell after taking a high dose of Temazepam, dealing with withdrawal symptoms from lithium, and struggling to stay motivated with a list of DIY tasks. They anticipate a two-week getaway for rest and hope their symptoms will improve over time.
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Day 3 without lithium – it’s kicking in
Struggling with withdrawal symptoms, the narrator faces a challenging day but finds comfort in routine, companionship, and creativity.
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Day 2 – On the wagon, the no lithium wagon
The author reflects on exhaustion after a family meal, considers ME, and emphasises seeking medical advice for similar situations.
Aimless
I’m from the UK — living with pain and mental illness, sharing my journals and fragments to show what it really looks like to keep going.