Woke up again, for some reason I had set my alarm for 8am, what’s all that about? Pressed snooze, when it goes off again I’m going to press off. Stomach cramps, feeling sick and crazy headaches behind my eyes and pumping veins in my temples, was it the amount of Benzodiazepines that I took last night to get to sleep or the fact that lithium is very nearly out of my system?
Got up, 08:30, wanted to sleep more but could not, put on my comforting cardigan over my pyjamas and headed down to the kettle, the singing of the water took my mind off the repetitive song in my head, the sickness remains, decided on coffee with lots of sugar and a treat today of some soya milk, joy, while the machine is creating I check the dishwasher, it’s empty, that’s a relief. Ruth’s alarm will go off soon and the day will begin.
Opening the curtains I feel shit, another day. I’m crying now, better get dressed, going out today.
Dubbin on my boots, dog music on,off to men in the shed, bit of a drive but well worth he visit. During my time there I could feel he effects of the lithium withdrawal, feeling shaky and sick.
A woodworking man was there and he encouraged 3 of us to do some whittling, I had some help, I did okay dispite my shaking hands amplified by the lithium withdrawals.
While I was there I chatted to one of the staff and told them what withdrawals I was going through, it was nice that they listened, and it made me feel better. I drove home and was glad to get there, I went to lay down and the evening closed in and the day was over, I am still shaking and not feeling too well. I will take some diazepam and get a nights sleep. Day 4 lays ahead nd we shall see what the day brings, Ruth is hoping that I will do some jobs around the home, let’s see how it goes.
Off to bed with a double up of Temazepam.
Keep safe, I wish I was
Please speak to Your healthcare provider, doctor, psychiatrist and anyone else whom is looking after you, before you even consider a similar journey that I have. The action that I have taken has only been taken with advice from my general practitioner doctor and psychiatrist.
