Was like something was wrong, or guilty feeling when you have done nothing wrong yet nothing seemed right. Woke shaking inside my heart and my mouth and feeling sick

Please go back to sleep. Please go back to sleep repeating and repeating in my head but it’s not gonna be that easy.

Happy Thursday to me!

So some food and coffee makes it feel a bit better, I wonder if I should start taking the new antidepressant that the psychiatrist offered me. I did get a letter today asking me to get a blood test for lithium. He knows that I have kicked lithium so maybe he is just kicking.

The blood tests have been quite good as they have picked up my hypergonadism and my 3rd stage kidney disease (I know it just stacks up)

So off to the chemists in a minute to pick up mu haul of repeat prescriptions, I will show you when I get back, they are enough to make anyone depressed.

So we’re due to leave for our two week break in the morning and I’m looking out the window at 10pm. Already got 2 inches of snow on the ground. Now people in different countries that wouldn’t really matter but in the United Kingdom it’s just bonkers how silly we are with the snow. Everything just seems to grind to a halt and consider an amount of salt we spread on our roads that really is unbelievable.

We’ll just see what the morning brings and if the sun is shining, I’m sure the main roads will be clear.

Good night God bless!